jude was sick for the past two days and i thank God for returning his pink health.

thank you Father for hearing my prayers and answering to them, like you always do!

tomorrow i will have a longggggggggggggg day hehs!

in bible it read, "be quick to listen, slow to speak"
and im inching towards that level of mental state.
or at the very least, i am learning.
one day after the incident, we had a quickshort drink.
you having said "forget about it", have to bring up the topic again.
was it a test for me?
you know it best probably.
at the very least i thought i handled the situation well on the spot :)
now you really amazed me with your "hehs it was nice seeing you again" when i texted "thanks for the ride" .
HAHA.
you are more of rubbish than me lah.



oh, somebody once told me.....

friday night was easy starbucks night with the girls.
failed attempt to stay away from alcohol.
HAHA.
strawberried again with nut friend and fellow competitors.
fun it was, as per previous :)
saturday i stayed home the whole afternoon.
masked & napped.
then to cousin's place for his celebration into adulthood.
BLESSED ONE my only biao di hehs.

easy saturday night it was.
cos by midnight i was on bed.
and it has been the longgeeessttttt time.

****


today was good sweatout!
1130am-1230pm for one good hour of body pump @ true.
following fifteen minutes of hatha yoga.
it is really HIGHHHH time to get back the fitness level hehs :)
FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS.
i'd reckon bad ache tomorrow with all the excessive body acid produced today.
HAHA.




baby you know that.
it's time for...





was having heart-heart conversation with the folks

hurtful it is to know some stuff.
yet enlightened i am to know it.
people say "time heals" , but i'd beg to differ.
cos' time never seem to heal;
at least not in our case.

so daddy smacked this statement right straight into my face
" dont go into a relationship if you are not ready. go for dates, as many."
and i know daddy knows me inside out for him to drop such hint.




then it hit me "am i ready?"

this answer i hide it behind my mind.
ask yourself this too, " are you ready for one stable relationship? "

we are all young & out to have fun

it is a short working week next!
and it'd be one hellavilous great motivated one!

:)

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Wednesday, November 18, 2009

( jokers in the world should unite @ 12:23 AM )

half an hour ago, i was shivering with anger.
and now half an hour later, i am shivering with cold.
yes, jokers in the world should unite.
i need to find the nonchalent me.

speak what you like, but God will lead me away from the evil.
i put my Faith in Him cos' i believe He will bring me through the way.
for all, i always entrust everything in our Father's right hand.
turn my eyes and ears away from the evil, Father.

i care no.
yes, NO.

hey, God bless you.

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Monday, November 16, 2009

( today i splurged myself @ 12:08 AM )

on a one-year membership @ truefitness.
call me crazy, call me rash.
and the deal was sealed within the span of half hour with the talking & being showed around the facilities (and it is not as if i havent stepped into the outlet before!!)
oh probably i was smittened by mister robin?!
HAHA.
so let's cross finger that i may get the UOB card application processed so i will save at least thirty dollars on my monthly membership hehs!
never have i saw that i would at any point near this time of mine i be joining a fitness club member but after doing the body mass measurement, i realized i probably have been too detached from gyming&classes!
and here they read:

gender: female
age: 21
height: 157cm (OH MY FARKING SHIT I ALWAYS THOUGHT I WAS 159CM!!!!!!!)
weight: xx
bmi: 22.3 (the standard average is between 18.5-24.9 ; okays im safe)
bmr: 1236kcal (the standard average is between 1400-1800kcal ; SHARKS!! IM BURNING WAY TOOOOOO LITTLE!!!!!)
fat%: 27.1 (HOLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ideal for my weight is 17-24%!!!!)
ffm: 40.1kg (luckily my bones & organs take up more than 75% of my body weight!)

in all, i have really overlooked on my intake of fats!!!!!!!!
now this is BAD hurr!
no no, jo isnt' talking about sliming down!!
never.
SLIMING doesnt' exist in her world hehs :)

but hey, surely it is time to trim down those lumpy fats in the body before i clog those blood vessels of mine and die of heart attack!!!!!!
okays, maybe i am exaggerating that tad bit lah hurr.
but still, KNOCK KNOCK!!!
i am going to be honest and admit that ever since me & ivan went separate ways, i havent been taking good care of my shape except the morning jogs.
cardio exercises will not do much aid of the body maintainence if they do not pair up with endurance training.
so, CLASSES & THOSE IRONS, HERE I COME!!!!!!!
tone it up baby heh!

a good health would be the best early christmas present for myself!
live it up girl :)

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Sunday, November 15, 2009

( lazy saturdaysunday @ 12:24 AM )

i adore amany.
saturday i slept in,woke up, smsed, threehournapped,steamboated@fatty's and strawberried.
yes, strawberried.
HAHA.
oh! zircaed,rebelled too.
minus the pretty turn-off,off-tuned bad flow of music,
i loved the companion of the two BEST friends!
HEHE.

dice game & chips with martel is additive!
and i think i should stay a lil' distance nut friend.
yes i love you.
but i dont love you.

today i slept in again till 10ish a bad ass got to call and not speak out.
so i called the bad ass to hear his insincere apologies.
okay, at least thats the supposed feel he gave.
too bad, try harder.

oh, smsed,TVed, napped, COMPed,chompchomped.
it's slightly past eight and i think im gonna turn in soon :)
chillynight, i like.

i really should stop wasting my weekends away.
till 2010 joanne ling, work on it!

you are bad.
but i know you are good.
at least i'd insist on keeping my feeling this way so.

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Thursday, November 12, 2009

( on urgent today @ 12:13 AM )

it is just one of those days that you want to drop work and go hideaway.
and i had one good afternoon with jude.
yakun kayatoast&kopi-o-kosong,kopi-o-kao-sui-tai;
reservoir-staring in the car & the driving;
the short walks & breathing in of the lil' chilled humid air and the bottletreepark.
oh plus the many kisses&hugs.
i adore how you said you had busy morning yet cleared work and came all the way back home.
well dont deny i was taken aback.
i just knew you have your means&ways, like as always/

for once after these while, we had a non-alcoholic day.
we are both awed.
HAHA.

you always say im evil/temptress/wicked;
i showed you how so.
HAHA.


****

sidetrack, yesterday's mambo@zouk ever since the longggggeesst time.
the many jugs of longisland and martel coke (jiejie's UNCLE drink).
the mambojumbosquareroom and the phuture r&b.
good shit fun with good shit drama mama.
HAHA.
oh you two BEST friends, really one kind BESSSSTTT friends hurr.
minus the lil' bad ending, we had it ALL!
:)

and tomorrow is FRIDAY!

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Tuesday, November 10, 2009

( good girl, i probably aint' one @ 12:16 AM )

and as i was having this casual conversation with chris wong, it suddenly dawn upon to me the whole theory of "mirror reflection" in the case of jude&i.
now you see, i aint engaging this topic based on any biasness towards his fair treatment.
but really, it is really about people&judement, or rather, people& their tinted sight.

now, i have my family&friends giving statements like "oh he sure looks like one play boy lah!" ,"player look lah!", "can play, cannot be serious!"
then again, these are the similar share of comments given by his friends with regards to their judement on me cept' they'd probably run like this "woah she is too havoc lah!", "you sure she doesnt' sleep around?"
HAHA.

what goes around, comes around.

indeed,at least the very case for him&i.

this is the way i am,and i like the way you are.


ANYHOW, TOMORROW WE WILL
PARRRRRTTTTTTTEEEEEEEE PEOPLE!

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Sunday, November 08, 2009

( packedgood fridaysaturdaysunday @ 12:51 AM )

so friday was the drive down to woodlands angmokio buona vista and back to office in bern's twolitred camry.

stressful a ride it was.

the falsity entertainment done @client's new premise.

and glad was i to have jude&shah 's early happy hours @tawanndang prior to the maddness bala session.

two two-litred towers of beer following three bottles of macalan.

that was the amount we had for the night.

drinkdrankdrunk we have had for one colleague;then the breakdown &tears what not for another.

my! sure it was a night.

nevertheless we had our good sober fun prior the lil' drama.

HAHA.

shah you were one hell cock hilerious and thank you a many again for ah ciang's!!

saturday afternoon was easybreezy with joyce sis with the handphone drama then the XLB and coffeebeans'.

the talks and all we caught up.

evening time came in blinks and i had to set off for yun's party just half hour after i stepped home.

surely irene ang was one cockster crap.

HAHA.

so we thought yun was so going to get sloashed hehs!

HAPPY TWENTY FIRST PYY!!!!!

:)

go get your bb heh with the lil' chipin from us.

so while the rest headed homesweethome, the four other had some happening good shit fun hurr!?

HAHA.

coming wednesday people whoooo!!!

yeayeaohoh!

boomboompow! *winks

and today falls as sunday, finally the meetup with the complete good ol' ones after our last cartina dinner!

gosh it sure has been a lonnngggg time hurr ling lings!

hawkie breakfast and the bubble tea loves with shoparoundwalkaround.

love happens then homesweethome.

oh and then the loading of dumbdumb sis' wedding onto FB.

gogogo check them out hehs!

we need to slow down our pace.

now would you meet me halfway?

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Thursday, November 05, 2009

( today i @ 4:49 AM )

TABOOED daddy's lancer again.
HAHA.
hell it was pouring crazy catsdogs & just as i was turning into the carpark's bend,
"KRA KRA KRA" was the next sound i could remember hearing.
oh hell yes i had the side of the driver's side backdoor scratched against the kerb.
and the very person that came into my mind was jude ow.
yes like SOS HEEELLLLPPPPPPPPP!!

so, yadah yadah, met him at bukit timah road and he brought me to the workshop shah recommended at kaki bukit.
can't be more than any thankful for this very great workshop he recommended.
ninty bucks for the reworks over two panels.
"DARN CHEAP" was what jude said.
not that i have any idea, but i cant count my blessings than more that the workshop managed to finish the repairing five plus, probably less than three hours that i sent the car in!
efficient, oh darn very.

anyhow, we hung out at tawandangs and yes, we talked again.
im awed how much we talked today.

probably he will never get to see my entries.
but hey jude, your question today slapped me right into my face.
it got me reflecting what exactly have i been doing around the town;
it got me reflected how wilful and spoilt i really have been.
like i told you what joyce reprimanded me for "you deserve downright should jude walk out of this relationship one fine day."
i really have taken all for granted, no, i took us for granted.
this time round, im really willing to take it the lessons hard baby.

then again, you are contradicting on one hand boy.
you said you dont bother what others said, you never did.
then why, why do you question me?
you said you dont care how people may see nor bother people's critic at bala.
then why, why do you not agree when i asked if it's the face issue im not giving you?
you said you cannot see us being together and i asked if i had not given you the least security expected.
then why, why do you say you need no security?
you said you see us more as very good friends whom you can relate everything to than if i was ever your girl.
then why, why do you not answer me when i asked " so now what boy?"
you said you dont see that you mean anything more to me just because i dont ask more than i think i should?
then why, why do you beg to differ when i rebutted how you may find me bothersome if i had questioned too much?
you said "you know? i dont know you at all and you dont know me too."
then why, why do you not allow me to enter your world boy?
you said i was the one who ended this relationship when i gave you no option that night and that you gave kudos to me for the fact i was the one only girl who ever left you speechless.
then why, why do you not answer my question?

i am sorry boy.
i am.
and all that matters all is the chance im asking for.
for us to work this relationship out again.

you matter.
alot.
in my world.

i love you jude ; and that is probably all you need to know.

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Monday, November 02, 2009

( "who said it was over, silly?" @ 12:47 PM )

was what he said before he leaned over & planted that peck on my lips.
at end's day, that was what that matters.
we kissed & made up.
xoxo.

we talked alot tonight, with all airs cleared.
at least i supposed so.
thank you for opening up, boy.
you leave me with cries&tears, you leave me with laughters&smiles.
ultimately, it is still you i want.

i thank my lovely God-sent angels who kept by me this 2 weeks.
you know who you are :)
more thankful to our ever gracious God who always hear & answer my prayers!
im blessed.
really.

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Sunday, November 01, 2009

( dont stop @ 5:04 AM )

let's see.
this morning i got up at 10am after six hours of sleep.
i TVed;b'fasted with folks & fatty; i TVed and i napped for three hours.
i thought i didnt' want to wake up for dinner cos' i had chicken rice for b'fast and having done pratically nothing cept' potato couched the day, i still felt the chicken rice inside me.
but then, mum had to bring out the magic word " CRAB" and i immediately washed up and put on my cap & ta, within the span of five minutes, i was up and ready.
HAHA.
okays we only had cereals prawns/friedfish & meegoreng,beehoon ultimately cos' the crabs under the "2 for 10bucks" promotion were sold out.
and now im back home doing nothing cept' typing away in front of the computer screen.
OMGF.
i need to start my RUN!!!!
forget about the darn cough man.
if not im really feeling more bloated than ever especially with mense coming!

briefly, folks were asking me about jude & his family stuff over dinner.
daddy even asked what he actually does over the weekend.
HAHA.
he must be doubting why this supposed boyfriend doesnt' seem to keep his precious girl companied over the saturdaysundays.
they asked and probably daddy got my hint of hesitation over the answers.
i have never really liked explaning.
never.
and this a distinct character that runs in me have been critisized bad by the family time&again.
"dont' dig", is what i'd always brush off with.
but along the way, i have learnt to speak up with the family.
and for that im thankful to God.
call me spoilt, i know.
call me someone who never learns to cherish & only takes things for granted, i know, too.
but trust me, i have learnt.
probably cos' i never bother explaining.

there were many questions in my head.
there were.
but all i have put aside, cos' im missing you more than dying to have answers to my questions.
now again, who is who to judge?

i have not cast my Faith away.
and i never will.
cos' i entrust my worries to God's victorious right hand, knowing He would life me high up!
AMEN!

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