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Friday, February 26, 2010

( 2602 @ 1:18 AM )

status update:
[1 year ago & later, same exact place.it was still heart-skipping when i saw that familiar facade.but probably at end's day that is all]

indeed.
tonight as i stood & dance with joce&chip at the same exact corner where i met jude&brother one year ago with woman, flashbacks of 260209 came images after images.
ironically, standing at the same place one year later, so much since happened and changed as well.
i texted him this morning,

[whoo!"one" is reflected on my handphone's calender entry for the day hehs! hey boy, if i were to go on thanking you for all d lil individual whatnots, i dunno when the list will stop, but put it short, thank you for the rollercoaster ride up&down through this one yr!one yr aint lng bnut surely you gave me much memories, both good&bad hehs. still, no worries for i'd love you on as d crazy irritating boy!i'd probably not come across any other guy fren whom i can be most truth to and for that, i really treasure this friendship hehs!]

and he replied this,

[hey gal :) its great knowing you and a year goes by so fast. you r a terrific person who brings joy to people around you. i am glad to have this privilege!]

you know intially he didnt' reply my text when i asked if he was at st james partying tonight, i really left it as it is.
no more, no less.
then came two plus while we girls were high on music & fun, his facade had to pop up on my mobile display.
he told me he was movida and without a thought i looked at woman with the "can i?" look, and literally ran off.
sounds very desperate, some of you may deem it.
this is my blog and i want to keep it as a avenue of release & actual safekeep of my memories.

so anyway, when i pushed the door into movida or rather, when i saw him through the glass panel section, my heart totally fluttered.
not the way i actually wanted myself to react but tell me, who can stop body's most natural reactions?
he gave me his most charming silly "hi there" smile and honestly, that was all that may keep me contented for this special day.

yadah & what not, he joined us back at powerhouse for short session before he decided to piss me off totally.
and for the second time in two weeks, i had to F him.
but i decide to keep it the way woman said " probably he doesnt' want me to fall in again."
i'd appreciate that, really.
but i'd appreciate even more, if he had not come to disrupt my night's peace.
i could do fine, you know?
however i let myself down again & poured out to woman&the girls bad, not cos' i hadnt' let go.
but for the fact that i allowed myself to be vulnerable towards him again.
you know, even when he held my hand along the way through tetween benelli and powerhouse, i didnt' feel the same like how it should have been?
but im upset that i let myself subconciously go crazy once again over him.
gosh.
i really need to learn to tame my craziness sometimes.

still, this one year means alot to me.
there are certain good memories which i'd always remind myself of, as they never fail to just add on the that beautiful smile on my face.
maybe a pity we never made it that far together as one, but the times we had as one, were no doubt one of the best and worst i have had.
now as two individuals, i'd still see us having good crazy times together cos' this ass makes one good partner in crime.
HAHA.
as much he'd incurred my wrath tonight, i still cannot deny the vast energy and patience i hold towards him.
no, i repeat, not that i harbour any thoughts of reconciliation, but cos' i treasure him as an individual.

hey jude, you know you could have just slipped your night out of st james without telling me your presence, thank you.
it meant alot to me that i see you tonight.



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Monday, February 22, 2010

( chapter 1: being single is not a curse @ 7:54 AM )


[
so many people out there stay in relationships for the sake of convenience, out of fear, or to please family members.
Anyone who stands up for his or her own happiness should be commended.
I know how difficult is it to walk away from that dream of happily ever after.

]

end thought- how many people actually has the courage?



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Sunday, February 21, 2010

( hello tiger year @ 12:04 AM )

never too late to have the post despite being it is already 初八 heh?
werent' we all still rushing for all the spring cleaning just a week ago and time has silently slipped through us again, having the lunar festive half gone.
i have had a pretty fun good gathering, have you?
not sure if it was the absence from some of the relatives or rather, have the busy momentum got me lost on track that it totally shocked me knowing my nephew is already in JC!
my last memory was him entering secondary school!
and i have had one cousin-in-law asking me if i have had kids already?!!
WTH?!!!
HAHA.
and sure it was a rare coincide year having valentines' day to fall on the first day of cny.
adore the drinking session @bottle with part of the clique under that starry night.
now who says you need a partner to spend v-day with?
we celebrate the day for friendship as well! :)

speaking of friendship, im glad that jude&i have finally cleared out the supposed 'dubious' status of our r/s.
thankful am i to God for anointing my courage to speak out over all that have been lying in my head over the past months ever since the adam's incident & the downhill thereafter.
yes, we are good as friends.
that is all for now, fullstop.
i cannot deny that my heart ached bad on thursday night after the talk.
and it ached even worst on friday morning after the text.
but i know, that would be the last time i allow my heart to ache for him.

hey, i love you, jude.
i love you for the company and for how freely i could be being myself in front of you.
no need for pretentious, just pure me for who i am, & pure you for who you are.
no sweetheart talks, no flattery gestures, but words & actions done from the sincere hearts.
and i love you for letting me experience loving someone truly, for once.
im sorry i could never be the perfecto girl in your eyes, but im thankful that you'd love me on as a dear friend.
hey jude, :)



you know, within the span of two days, i cleared out the issues pertaining to the hearts' affairs.
with jude, with bernard.
probably it is the after-effects from my new collection "Better Single than Sorry"?
haha!
and really, i feel the relieve, the lift-off my chest.
quoted from the book- "Our lives should be full with or without a man. We owe it to ourselves to be content"
everyday i will remind myself that im a valuable human being who deserves true happiness.
i may lost my heart out in the recent heartbreaks, but i have not lost myself.
i may have lost faith in men, but i have not lost the faith in the magic of true love :)

oh, did i not mention last night's zouk session with jie,pbr & di was hellabella heaven broke loose?
HAHA!
the drink drank & drunk!
good music, perfect company, more than i could ever ask for!
chip, once again we affirm your zouk curse!
HAHA!

life is good!
if i say it is so! :)




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Thursday, February 11, 2010

( time&again @ 12:44 AM )

i fail to remind myself right from the very start.
or rather, i prompted but somehow lost myself in the circle.


anyhow, back from the very fabulous bangkok trip on sunday night.
monday was off, with massive cleaning up of the room.
and the start of lesson for semester one.
thank you to those who text and gave encouragements!
thank you :)
and it was nice of jude to have sent me to school despite it was me who reminded that arse i have lessons.
we talked, caught up.

and i know i have left the emotion baggage behind me.

tuesday it was work & lunch appointment.
emails & lateness for lesson.
then bala (since the longest time) and then kampong bharu for drinks with bernard & co.
sure a late night it was.

wednesday and it was morning-long of meeting with our philippino agent and the lunch.
and FINALLY home for mummy's dishes.
missed ian baby big time!
and he is such joker.

fatty sis "ian, mummy stomache leh"
ian "mummy, didi meimei when come out?"
HAHA.
such ignorance heh.

today, an incident happened.
or rather, incidents took place and i thought alot over my train ride home.
and i spoke to Father secretly in my heart.
Father, i know you hear my prayers and i entrust my burdens on You, as always, knowing you will take care of them.
thank you Father.
in all good name of Jesus, Amen.

lots photos to load but till then!



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Wednesday, February 03, 2010

( supposedly on leave @ 12:19 AM )

but got withdrawn at the very last mintue (for the first ever time) by my dear boss cos' of USA agent's visit.
im sorry best!! :(
hold on till next week alritey?!?! :)

on leave from tomorrow till monday and resuming work on tuesday!
cleared off my remaining three days from year 2009.
flight out tomorrow at 105 pm and touching down SIN on sunday at 1045pm.
perfect that i gonna have some good rest before i embark on my degree course coming monday!

till then,
BYE LOVE ALL!
:)



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Tuesday, February 02, 2010

( hello bangkok @ 12:20 AM )


HERE WE COME!!!!!!!!!!!!!




woman i hellllaaaa luuuuuuuuuuuurrrrrvveeeeee you BIG BIG time ar!!
IGGER than your two tuanehnehs!!

WAHAHAHAHHA!!!


so FINALLY, the two of us are going for a getaway on a farking random la
st-minute decision, oh, after the longgggeest digression,
like for the first ever time , we actually did super last minute booking!!
HAHA!

has it been years since we go "omg woman, we should go for a trip after our graduation!"
HAHA!
and it has been freaking three years since!!!

still, better a late trip than never!!

we goonnnnaa
BANG the COCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

actually seriously, woman, thank you for your UP-ness.

if not im really gonna go away 4d3n alone, like ALONE!!!
yes cos' of the farker!
oh dont get me started.


anyway, i am reallly more excited combing the land of smiles with my woman!!!
hehe! W
HOOOOO WHEEEEE for the ten thousandth time!



back monday, it will be a new chapter for me!
im so gonna groooooveeee for this trip!!! like GROOOOVEEEEE yeah woman!!! :)
till then!!!
OH LOVE HELL YEAH OH!!!!
SPA MANI PEDI SHOPPING SEAFOOD BIRDNEST PLATINUM MALL MBK CHATUCHAK
EAT SHOP MASSAGE EAT SHOP MASSAGE!!
WHOOOO!!!


God, please bless us for a good safe trip!
AMEN!



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