happy with his elmo balloon.kids!

how sweetlovable right!!!??
:)
but how awfully unbearable for the fact that they are flying back to hongkong tomorrow!
and it touched me one big time when my cousin called me on friday night and said " eh, my son ki siao lah!keep bugging me call biao yi! biao yi biao yi!"
HAHA.cuteassshit!

and over easter weekend, we had a cousinsgathering @ fatty's place, practically the small group of closer ones (oh, our extended family line is too long for ALL the cousins to be gathered.or rather, we dont even really know all our cousins either way).
of course, now our generation line has been extended to the little nephews running around us, making the noise around the house like how we all used to do so together.
no one remembers the last time we had sooooo much fun together.
no doubt the easycheap fun has been replaced with the resolve of technology (oh we play wii instead of hopscotch now), it is the familiar nostalgic feeling that overwhelmed us all that we uanimously agree for such gathering everytime lynn returns.

this is the kind of love, never replaceable.
xoxo manys.



**
you know, i havent' really been feeling in the right kind of mood the past week.
a home incident, another incident over nut fren & his girl on monday, the drinking on thursday night, plus the silliness of a close friend on saturday.
i cannot help but feel the insecurity and fear in me.
oh yes, i hate to admit this.
i hate it that im upset, pretending im not.
just thursday i was telling jenny, "tell me how to trust?pls just tell me how."
the word "how" no longer ends with a question mark.
it isnt a question to me anymore.; it's a matter of statement made.
a statement of action, rather, probably.someone told me, she doesnt know how to trust in her new relationship and i told her this " you are different from me. you are in a r/s in which you are trying to work out. im in companionships in which im just seeking fun."
kind of skeptically sad hurr?
i find it so.
to this date, rather, after coming to find out something which i think i shoudnt have come to close upfront contact, im disappointed, totally.
i find no reason to even start a r/s.
just what is the point, when everyone seems just out to have fun?
now who really cares these days?
who?
sorry, im really trying my best to not think in such negativity.
trust me.
i have always trusted, but ended up bruised bad in my heart.

till the day may come when we decide to move on further or to wrap up the company.

okays, i know those who are reading this right now might not really get what im saying, but it doesnt matter.

i just needed a corner to vent and i dont care how you may or may not judge me.

bottom line, im gonna focus on my pursuit for degree at least in the remaining months of course; work hard in my area of responsibility in office; and continue to love my family and the few friends i have always placed on my priority list.

of cos, to immerse in every single moments of good fun. (yes, live;laugh;&love) :)

end's note, i leave all my worries&concerns onto His victorious right hand.


yeap, Happy easter day, all :)
today, we celebrate the day that Jesus was ressurrected from His death of bearing our sins.
even if the whole world may have forgotten about you, remember, God loves His children, us.
in Jesus name, we say, "Amen!"